missionary position

Am I a bad guy for trying to find a girl to date at Church? According to most people I have talked to about this quest for an eternal mate at the most eternally-focused group around: Yes, I am a bad guy--nay, the worst sort of guy. They'll tell me: "That's not why you should go to Church." And maybe they're right. But I don't think this is the case. Because finding a girl any where else is rather difficult and, frankly, I am over the search.

I consider myself to be somewhat thoughtful, somewhat in the sense that I love theories that sum things up. This is a problem though since I very rarely find thoughtful girls. They are either smart and skeptical or dumb and confused. Either way, it seems the furthest these girls think about their lives is whether or not they will attend grad school. Or even worse, what's going on Friday night.

Yeah I could put out a personal ad, I could sell my body over craigslist, or maybe I could sign up for a dating service like E-harmony and be matched up in 56 catagories which obviously make people fall in love. But I am through with the notion that compatability is synonomous with love. In fact, maybe I am through with any sort of notion that there is a girl for me out there---or even more severe, that I am the guy for one girl. I don't believe in the Uber-match, that one completely congruent piece of person.

So why would someone with so little faith in the opposite sex's ability to cosmically arrange a marriage find himself within a group of 20-something churchgoers, where faith abounds and premarital sex is shunned? Because Christian girls think. They can't not think. They must ponder the Universe. If a girl has found herself pledging allegiance to the King of the Universe, it necessitates an altered perspective. If a girl claims Christianity, she in essence claims her place in the system of things--she affirms that she is part of an organized reality. Christianity makes a person humbly a piece in a vast network of interrelated cause/effect relations. It makes sense of the world, whether or not someone can understand it. So whether or not the Christian girl has a high IQ, she is (unless she is faking the whole thing) able to think about the world as a whole. To the Christian girl, life is not a series of random events. Life is not chaotic--it's organized, organized by God. And with the assumption that the world is organized, I feel a girl has the best opportunity to think about it.

I don't feel Christian girls are easy for a date. I feel like they are easy for a good thought.

Maybe I am a bad guy for not being in Church already.